So Abraham talks about not arguing for your limitations but I was really struggling with this concept of always being the “strong one” and being a perfectionist but not being able to sustain excellence.
I realized that it was in this space that my BELIEFS around the shame of failure and its inherent partner unworthiness- that was keeping me “stuck” in fear-mode. Once I got okay with the POSSIBILITY of being a failure (because….so what?? I failed means I’m not worthy? I don’t think so…) it was like this HUGE pressure came off my chest and spirit and now it seems that I’m okay with the idea of striving for greatness.
My angels were telling me that it was TIME to let go of the confidence crisis and step into my power. I made peace with both being a failure and a success. I made peace with the idea that it’s okay to be a badass alpha female and do shit not every woman can or wants to do and I don’t have to feel TIRED doing it because it’s what I’m BUILT to do.
I made peace with the concept that being an alpha female in all its “masculine” traits doesn’t make me less of a woman and I too am worthy of receiving. I made peace with creating space to ALLOW myself to receive while transitioning into the energy of going out and getting it whatever “it” may be.
What I HAVE learned is that life truly requires balance. For every moment I spend at work as a deputy sheriff scared shitless (but doing it anyway isn’t that called bravery or courage?) with my weapon out clearing a business that had just been burglarized all by myself there HAS to be other experiences in my life that allow me to tap into my softer side. Like walking in the woods, caring for my family, building a garden etc..
I’m feeling a lot more downstream about this and, of course, the universe is responding….More to come on this….