I’m starting to think one of the main lessons of my spirit path is finding peace in opposition and allowing a space for all things in existence.
While Chiron passes through Aries for the next approximate 8 years we’ll all be examining the wound of Identity.
It’s showing up for me in these dichotomies/dualities:
- Mystic (feminine) vs. Peace Officer (masculine)
- Black (my partner) vs. White (me)
- Hippie (my identity as a teenager) vs. Sailor (first shift in identity)
- Hospital Corpsman (modern medicine) vs. Medicine Woman/Herbalist (ancient healing practices)
- Conservative vs. Liberal (I resonate with both)
- Personal high integrity (choices from own spiritual truth) vs. societal norms (which disagree with my personal truth)
This is just my story and my experiences but I feel it’s there to give me the bird’s eye view of humanity. To just watch and observe and understand the EXPERIENCE of each state of being or identity and not assign greater value to any particular identity.
To create space for no judgment with self and others.
There is the notion that when we eventually incarnate for the final time and remain in heaven we will have experienced every facet of the human experience from a karmic standpoint- the persecuted/the persecutor, the victim/the perpetrator, the rescued/the rescuer, the betrayer/the betrayed, kind/unkind, rich/poor, oppressed/oppressor, the awake/the asleep and so forth.
I’m also examining this wound of identity from an ancestral standpoint and for my identity as a white American- partner to a black man and mother to a biracial child. For me, they are my family. To others, their experiences would say I’m either brave, crazy, beautiful, immoral, an abomination, everything that’s right in the world or everything that’s wrong in this world.
I understand that the perception of others is irrelevant to my experience from a consciousness standpoint.
But I understand on a very deep level that Americans of all races and walks of life are experiencing the wound of Identity.
I’m feeling called to examine our ancestral trauma more and more. All of us have experienced the disconnect of our ancestors.
This disconnect is so pervasive in our culture that we are the walking wounded.
When we heal our identity we can relate to the “other” with a healthy sense of self.
I could say (to the best of my knowledge) that I am of Irish, English, French, Italian descent. But that is my ancestors heritage. I am in the here and now as an American. The culmination of all of my ancestors.
I could also say I could connect with the Celtic or Gallic heritage of my European ancestors and practice their indigenous medicine but in my DNA holds Roman ancestry as well.
I hold the DNA of the oppressed indigenous tribes of Europe and the oppressive DNA of the Romans during their colonization of Europe.
I hold the DNA of poor Irish laborers coming to America not knowing the suffering other European Whites caused through the wound of colonization to the indigenous North Americans.
But RIGHT NOW, I’m a white American woman raised in the North (called a Yankee by many Southern Americans-yet another divisive identity) living in Texas (called an “import” by the Native Texans).
As an American, the identity of North and South still holds weight and prejudice from the Civil War.
For my partner, a black man, America has meant much different things to HIM. And the oppression of his people is an experience I can only intellectualize but not truly understand experientially. The more I come to know the more I try to hold space for healing for all of our identities.
This is the power of healing our identities and ancestral trauma.
I hope that we all begin to consider this wound of identity. On the other side of it is space for wellness, the ability to allow no judgment with self and others.
Imagine what we will create and perpetuate from an unwounded space.
What are your experiences?